The ‘blogees’ have spoken and I am so grateful.  The most comments on my humble blog ever!  Thanks for your help.  You want humanness?  I got humanness!  Today it comes in the form of sloth.

I had a SAD day today on a sunny day!  That does not usually happen.  Sun and I are very simpatico and our moods align like BFF’s yielding productive, gratitude-filled days.  NOT TODAY.  Today, I found my face in my pillow three times.  Three naps in one day!  Unheard of.  And despite sleep, my usual elixir of clarity and energy, I got foggier with each round.

For a few hours, I thought I was ‘going down’ as we call it in my house when someone is heading towards a debilitating flu.  But no, I rebounded.  A friend had had a small heart attack over the weekend and I could not help thinking that my symptoms were echoing hers.  I questioned whether I was avoiding working on my book by developing a case of slothhood today.  None of it stuck as a real reason.

So, I surrender.  This gets to be ‘me’ today.  Not my best. Not my worst.  Not who I want to be, but it’s what I’ve got today.  Now, I just wish for bedtime.  Easy, you’d think.  The trick is getting three kids to bed so I can too!

I am having blogsgivings.  Kind of like misgivings except it’s about my blog.  When people ask me if I blog or if I’m a blogger, the answer is “not exactly”.  Yes, I have a blog, but to me a blogger has a clear theme, message or story and they post about it regularly.  I don’t post regularly, as you well know, and where this blog started out with the theme of ‘what makes a meaningful life’, it feels rather directionless at the moment.

I don’t want a ‘Dear Diary’ type of blog.  I hesitate to give too much voice to my irreverence and I can only stand so much spiritual insight myself right now.  So, I am turning to you.  The small, but lovely group that will actually read this blog post.  What do you want from me?!  What is it that I have written in the last two years that has made it worth you sticking around?  What do you want to read that will keep you around?

It’s not like I have other things to do—write book five, take care of three kids, a husband and a house and run a full time coaching and speaking business.  I do lack time and  lose track of the blog, but if you helped me know that it mattered, I know I could find myself at this posting station more often.

Speak now or forever hold your piece.  Have no piece-givings. Speak!